Digital art/ Mental health art

Happy Mental Health week!

Can you see me now?

Can you see me now? (2017)

I’ll admit at the moment I’m in a down state, there have probably been signs of it for the past few days but only now, as things have gotten to it’s “Bad,” Level where my mind is wishing for it to end. People tell me, “The mood will pass,” But what they don’t see is that I remember each one of my bad down states, they leave scars , burn marks and blisters. I hide them behind a mask because, in mental illness you have to remain strong.

With mental illness, it’s hard enough to battle with it, battling with the stigma and people’s point of views is another hill to climb over. The people with the conditions will probably think of themselves as something like, “Weak,” Or, “Crazy,” Or even something worse. We don’t need to be told any negative point of views, mental health needs acceptance and to be dealt with appropriately.

 

Body Dysmorphia CUT

Body Dysmorphia (2017)

It’s a condition which distorts how you view yourself, finding flaws in your own appearance, although it’s not always looking too, “Fat,” sometimes the viewer can see themselves as, “Too Skinny,” Or even, “Not symmetrical,” Enough. They can see themselves as being, “Disfigured.” People start working on, “fixing,” themselves doing things like obsessively weighing themselves, over exercising, needing constant reassurance, using heavy makeup or tanning etc.

Sometimes the obsession can lead to eating disorders.

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Digital Art/ Mental Health Project

Defusion techniques FINALDefusion Techniques (2017)– It was part of my CBT, to get me to challenge the negative thoughts. To make it better to remember I drew this taking my pet rabbit- Poirot, as a muse. Ok, it doesn’t help all the time to challenge thoughts, especially if you have a mind like mine where you end up having arguments with yourself. I figured I’d show one way to help negative thinking. With Depression, Bipolar disorder or any mental health issue, it’s probably the number 1 trigger.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Fall to PiecesFall to pieces (2017)- One thing about Borderline Personality disorder, I try to get across to people is the oversensitivity some of us have. One little change and our emotions can shift in a matter of seconds. Stability turns into a nervous wreck. It’s like one gust of wind and you’ll find yourself falling to pieces with no idea how to piece yourself back.

 

 

 

Painting Project + Update

 

Dreamer.png Cage on the Ground (2017)

Inspired by the Flyleaf Song Cage on the Ground. The song really speaks to me, as to me personally it talks about the cage we all are stuck in but we do have a chance to escape it and break out of this control society has on us

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Update- 

As I have mentioned in my artwork and explanations, I have various mental health conditions. I’m actually happy to announce my story on Bipolar and one of my artworks has been published on The Guardian Website 🙂

https://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2017/mar/31/experiences-of-bipolar-disorder-every-day-it-feels-like-i-must-wear-a-mask

 

Fanart- Ellen Schreiber’s Vampire Kisses Valentine fan art competition

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Around February Author Ellen Schreiber announced a fan art competition for her manga/book series Vampire Kisses as a major fan of the books I decided to have a go… I was one of the 2 winners and won a signed book and book mark 🙂

Painting project

3-times-a-day-7-days-a-week3 times a day, 7 days a week (2016)
One of the things about having Chronic Illnesses is the amount of medication you can be stuck with. This is some of the empty blister packets I have and decided to use. The clocks symbolise the times of day to take my tablets and the flowers are there because sometimes the medication doesn’t work and the only thing you have going is positive thinking and hope

ribs-and-heartRibs and heart (2017)

I haven’t done oil painting in a while. The feeling of anxiety had been gripping me that week. The feeling like something was tightening my chest was there.  My first thought was to draw a hand squeezing a heart, but as I painted it progressed into flowers and vines flowing down the ribs.

Painting Project

The Good and the Bad (2016)

The idea behind this painting came from my latest depression cycle. I keep getting fed up of people telling me that the down mood will pass. The thing is I know it will pass, I remember the good times, but the problem is those memories do nothing to effect my mood when it is in that deep

Chasing those good times

The paranoid fairground

The Paranoid Fairground (2016)

Ok, I’ll admit this is felt tip and not paint.

The idea behind this one came from a song called Paranoid Circus by a band called Lyriel

 

Mental Health art project- Update

 I’ve created 4 new images for the mental health project I’m doing, This project has become part of my- Time To Talk Pledge- http://www.time-to-change.org.uk/

I pledged to educate others about mental health and raise awareness. 

Bipolar worlds

Bipolar Worlds (2013)
Bipolar disorder is a mood disorder but it also changes depending on the mood how the person sees the world.

Dissociative disorder

Dissociative Disorder (Depersonalisation/Derealisation) Unlike Multiple Personality disorder people with Depersonalisation can feel out of control, often like they are seeing themselves do things, but there is not another personality controlling them

Psychosis

Psychosis (2013)
Hallucinations, Delusions that are not always linked to Schizophrenia.

Time to Talk

Time to Talk- Time to change

 

 

Link to the rest of my images for this collection- https://nightmarecat.wordpress.com/current-projects/mental-health/

Also, look out here for more of this collection and for updates

 

Mental Health Project

A few years ago I was diagnosed with, Bipolar Disorder and also it was found out I also have something called Derealisation and Depersonalisation  since then I’ve been on Medication and in and out of NHS care.

Mental Health is something which is sort of looked down on in society, ok the facts are 1 in 3 of us will suffer some kind of mental health issue. From when I said Bipolar a few of you might have thought, “Crazy Mood Swings,” Unless you have the condition chances are you aren’t going to know exactly what it is. Websites and reading up on these things will only get you so far. Same with Dissociative Disorder, most of you probably don’t even know what that is, it means that some times I dissociate myself from myself and the world- I don’t believe this world is real at times.

2012 I started doing some drawings, because at the time I was struggling with my health. Those taking medication with mental health issues can sometimes know, sometimes you feel better when you aren’t taking the meds. The doctor has explained to me the reason bipolar patients stop taking their tablets is because, Bipolar people prefer the “High” (Mania).

Recently, because my 3 years with the NHS Doncaster Early Intervention team is up and seeing the good things a mental health support group on Facebook have done and also a bit of encouragement from the BBC’s documentary, “Don’t call me Crazy,” I decided to using digital art to look at other mental health conditions, and at least give some image which those with the condition can relate too.

All new images  will be uploaded to this page- https://nightmarecat.wordpress.com/current-projects/mental-health/  Plus the older ones are on that page too.

But for now here is the first 3 official pictures I have created for this project

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Anxiety- 

I’ve known people who think people who feel anxiety are weak, that they need to pull themselves together… But in cases telling someone who is feeling like something dangerous is going to happen thinking they are weak isn’t the best thing.

Phobias, Panic Attacks and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder all come under Anxiety Disorders, they can come in mild- severe. And also there have been a number of cases of those thinking they are having an asthma attack when actually it’s a panic attack.

You have to think, in some cases people feel uneasy for a reason, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder people often feel anxiety because they are having flashbacks. Consider having something horrible happening over and over again in your mind, by the end of that you can feel like the whole world is out for you.

Psychosis

Psychosis- 

Patients with psychosis will often suffer from Hallucinations- seeing or hearing things that aren’t there. E.G such as hearing voices in their head or seeing figures in the room.

And/Or Delusions- believing something that is obviously untrue is true. E.G They have superpowers.

Some patients will often not know that the voices or figures aren’t real, others might. In both cases though the voices and images can be terrifying. Imagine being in an empty room where you have a voice talking, shouting in your head, possibly about you. Reality soon becomes hard to distinguish.

Schizophrenia is a condition where an individual will have repeated episodes of psychosis. If someone occasionally experiences psychosis it is not to say they have Schizophrenia, other conditions such as Bipolar Disorder also cause psychosis. It is best to see a Doctor/Psychiatrist if you or someone you know is believed to be having a psychotic episode.

Dissociative disorder

Dissociative Disorder. 

Dissociation houses a range of mental disorders, the most commonly known being Multiple Personality Disorder/ Dissociation Identity Disorder, where individuals have alternate personalities, which can be completely different to the original person- E.g a Kind, selfless person with MPD could have an alternate personality which is selfish all the time. The personality no matter what qualities it has can over power theirs, becoming the primary person for a while- Like an actor becoming a character in the media only the individual may not know they are becoming this person and obviously this isn’t for TV. These personalities can take on different styles and can even be a different age and gender to the individual with the disorder.

There are other conditions that come under Dissociation such as Depersonalisation Disorder,  which mean individuals believe a piece of their personality isn’t actually them. On occasion these people can feel trapped in their own head and out of control of the actions they are doing, they feel like they are viewing their life from an outside perspective.

I will be getting around to doing more mental health related pictures as soon as I can get around to it!